I Dont Wanna Share

So much has happened since my last post.
We've packed up and moved to California to take jobs as ministers of music. The trip was TEDIOUS for me at 35/36 weeks pregnant....but I made it (Thank you Lord).
For almost 2 weeks we bunked @ a hotel until we found the place just right for us.
And here we are, having been in Cali for just 3 weeks; living in our new place and already working at our new job.
While enjoying an off day and waiting for the cable guy to come my 3yo son woke from his nap in quite a foul mood. He was talking back, pushing my hand away, and making rude faces at me.
Finally I asked him what was wrong with him.

"Why are you being mean to mommy?"
"Because I dont wanna share" he said.
"Share what?"
"I dont wanna share you".......


And there it was. The moment I was dreading. The moment I knew would come but desperately hoped wouldnt. The moment when my 3yo expressed that he wasn't quite so excited about having a baby sister taking up some of the attention.

Im not sure that Im ready to handle this. I dont know all the right words to say to him. I just want to hug him as much as possible and tell him every 5 minutes how much I love him.

As the day of delivery draws closer, Im getting very excited to hold my little girl. But my daily prayer is that God will grant me the grace and strength to continuously let my Bubs know that he is not being replaced.

Motherhood....quite a journey.